Tuesday, July 29, 2014



How can I be proud 
if I am ashamed?
If love is a secret,
I’m keeping it so.

How can I have faith
if I am a sinner?
If love is a regret,
I am doomed to rue.

Still, the time goes on
and I live partially:
keeping one eye open,
sleeping one eye closed.

Noon until the night,
love hides from the bright.
Moon until dawn’s light,
love blooms out of sight.

How am I so vacant,
timid and self-betraying?
If love is everything,
I’ve everything to give.

Why am I so distant,
fickle and self-decaying?
Now I’ve given everything,
I’ll wait forever to receive.

Thursday, July 3, 2014



Why can’t you just be happy?
You could fall to domestica,
have love and the small things.
‘Twould be a dream realized. 

Instead, the fires lit in you
destroy, destruct and damage you. 
Living is a simple joy,
but life is Hell, a curse, a void.

Sleeping comes so peacefully
but living - you will cease to be.
I write to say, regretfully,
in living - you have ceased to me.

A New Smile

A New Smile

I saw myself today
I was in one of those houses that echos
With a grand hall and piano
I was opening a drawer and laughing
My lover stood to my right
My son played at my feet
And I saw a new smile on my face

I tried that smile on today
But it just did not fit
And while I suffered in the grey
Breathing in darkness
I remembered that one day
I’d find my way to the light
In the house that echos

I know one day I’ll open the drawer
And I’ll smile that new smile
With my lover to my right
And my son at my feet

So I'll cease filling the void
And breathe in today’s darkness
I'll be playing the piano
Oh, I’ll play the night away
When I live in the house that echoes